Is Rihanna too serious about her career? In the latest installment of her web distributed documentary of sorts, “Road To Talk That Talk,” she admits to having a breakdown, wanting to just have one night of sleep and finally feeling somewhat okay about going to a hospital for exhaustion as long as the album came out right.
“I started crying. I cried for 10 minutes really, really hard in my pillow. It was aggressive. I don’t cry loads. If I cry it’s because I’m very angry and I can’t do anything about it, because I’ve run into a dead end,” Rihanna says at one point in the 16-minute plus clip. “That’s when the tears would come down. But this time I needed to hear it, I almost wanted to punch somebody.”
According to Rihanna, the schedule imposed, last Fall, was so hectic she couldn’t get any sleep even when hospitalized for “exhaustion.”
“So now, I’m like, ‘One good night of rest.’ I get in bed, and it must have been two hours in before my phone started going off,” Rihanna says reliving the fall 2011 incident. “I was so frustrated I kept ignoring the phone. Every time it would go off, but every time I would ignore it. But it would be another burden on my shoulders, ’cause I know it has to get done.”
In the end, following video of her return to Barbados, Rihanna says it was all worth it.
“When I got the copies in my hand, it was so worth it,” said Rihanna. “I would never take it back. At times I wished things could have been different and easier, but then I didn’t really care when I got the album. The fact it was so difficult, the album feels so much better.”