Rihanna may be on speaking terms with her father now, especially after hanging out with the whole family during the Holiday Season (2010) but that still doesn’t mean she doesn’t have some ill feelings towards him still. In a new interview with Vogue Magazine, which she covers, the Pop/R&B star says she felt betrayed by her Dad, Ronald Fenty, after his comments to the press following the 2009 incident with ex-boyfriend Chris Brown as well as some other incidents.

“It really makes me question what I have become to my father. Like, what do I even mean to him? …..It’s really strange,” Rihanna tells the magazine. “That’s the only word I can think of to describe it, because you grow up with your father, you know him, you are a part of him, for goodness’ sakes! And then he does something so bizarre that I can’t begin to wrap my mind around it. You hear the horror stories about people going behind people’s backs and doing strange things, but you always think, Not my family. My father would never do that to me.”

Rihanna adds that her father didn’t event contact her first before feeding made up stories to the press on her behalf. And that he’s deceived her several times to make a profit.

“That was the first time…..My dad went to the press and just told them a bunch of lies,” she says. “Because he hadn’t talked to me after…that whole thing…. He never called to find out how I was doing, if I was alive, nothing. He just never called. He went straight to the press and got a check. And now he does it again.”

On a lighter note, RiRi also tells the magazine that style came to her at an early age and that she always wanted to be different from others.

“When I was fourteen and first started going out, I always wanted to be the opposite of everyone else,” she says. “So I would go to the club in a polo T-shirt and pants and sneakers and a hat on backward, just so I would not be dressed like other girls. And I got desperate for things that weren’t available in Barbados. I would cut things out of magazines. I was obsessed with creating a visual with clothing, and the way things are combined.”

How does she think about fashion now? “It’s become more about taking a risk. When I am putting looks together, I dare myself to make something work. I always look for the most interesting silhouette or something that’s a little off, but I have to figure it out. I have to make it me. I think that’s the thrill in fashion.”

For the complete Rihanna cover story, pick up the April issue of Vogue.